I want to start out this post with some great news.... Addy's husband Kenyon graduated from the police academy! He did really well and ranked very high in his class. I know he studied very hard and went through quite a bit to make it through a very rigorous training. GREAT JOB KENYON!!! Now they will be off to .... not sure yet but somewhere in Nevada.
I have wondered if I wanted to post this but it is a big part of my life so here goes... well first off I know there are many people who are not big pet lovers like me so this will probably sound silly to you but for me it is very difficult. On Friday my little Tilly (a Maltese Shitzu) was hit by a car and this time she didn't make it. She was out for her little visit to see my neighbor Kathy. She and Kathy walked out to get Kathy's mail when a car drove by. Tilly could not resist and off she ran. I heard her barking as she ran after the car. I came out to call her home when I saw Kathy and she said "Tilly's been hit". I saw Tilly and froze I couldn't bare to see her hurt but Kathy headed over to her so I did also. Kathy picked her up and then I took her. Tilly must have died just before we got to her because she just laid in my arms as I carried her to the house. We took her inside and laid her in the living room and we all just sobbed, Kathy , Kaitlyn and I. She looked like she was just resting. Her body was not broken but somehow she was not alive. We tried to massage her chest to she if we could bring her back and that is when the first flood of memories came back.... the day my dad passed away the paramedics worked for a long time as we waited for the ambulance to arrive but it didn't work.
The next flood of memories came when we decided we needed to do something with Tilly. I went and got a blanket to wrap her up in. But I could not totally cover her face... the night Cole passed, I can't get this out of my mind, when they covered his face with the blanket and took him away. I'm not comparing the heartache I felt that night with Cole to the loss of Tilly but Tilly helped me through this tough last year and I will miss her dearly. When I didn't want to get out of bed in the morning , I would, to take her for a walk. She was always there to welcome me home or to just sit on my lap no matter what I was doing. She was a great little companion..and losing Tilly sent me into a tail spin of memories. I became so physically sick I had to go to bed. My head hurt so bad I could hardly stand it and I just felt so sick. Kathy covered Tilly up and put her in a box. Kaity came and laid by me. That's all I remember until the next morning.
I'm ok now. Still missing Cole, my Dad and Tilly... but I always will.
Today I got up early, I couldn't sleep. So I went into my classroom and spent a few hours so I would be ready for my students on Tuesday. Now I'm going to head back and get the family up. It's time to get the party started! Kjerstin and her girls are coming over to spend the day! There are always good memories to make that help us through the difficult times.
Some good news. I got all my assignments completed for all three classes last night so today I will enjoy the holiday with my family!!! No homework today!
Happy Labor Day!
